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Welcome to our newest member, SShoebrid
My name is Ron, I am a Christmas nut always have been always will be. I am first and foremost a stay at home dad that has an evening job at a retail/grocery establishment. After my second son was born I stepped down from my management position, so my wife and I don't have to pay for daycare. My wife is a teacher in the town we live, so people recognize us everywhere in our little town.
My wife and I have been married for 9 years. We have 2 boys aged 6 and 3, both are young Christmas nuts.

I have loved Christmas as long as I remember
from seeing the lights on all the houses, to seeing if I could stay awake to see Santa.
Christmas has been the one constant in my life it has always been there for me, through the rough times of my parents divorce when I was 10 y/o or my mother's passing when I was 16.
Everyone always tried to make it something special for myself and sister when we were young no matter what was going on. I now believe that is why I love this time of year more than any other because of the efforts of my family to hold it above any other time of year. I get to make the season special for my boys now, whether it be by playing the music decorating the house and yard or just playing the dvd's. The memories the season has brought have always warm and it is no wonder why I look forward to making more of these memories every year. My favorite Christmas movie is A Christmas Story my favorite Christmas song is O Holy Night. My favorite Christmas artist is Bing Crosby.
Well if I ran on a little bit I am sorry I am new to blogging, it sounds always better in your mind.
I will try to keep posting and making it interesting for all who read.
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Battling Shyness & Anxiety Through My Eyes

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Posted 01-16-2012 at 01:25 PM by xmas365

As most of you know I fight through bouts of shyness and anxiety, as my fight against those problems for 2012 is still in its infancy I thought it would be a good idea to explain the things I go through in depth, so here it goes.

1. Over thinking/over critiquing: As in every little thing I do or think. There is not a day that ges by where I have my head wrapped around a comment I say or post, that may be misconstrued as a rude comment, or insensitive comment. The friends I make I always worry that I am too quiet, or I don't make sense on the comments I make. It's a tough situation for me to deal with the things that swirl around in my brain, and have always found it easier to write my thoughts down, when I was dating my wife I wrote constantly, notes, poems, my confused thoughts in a notebook. It was always a struggle but it worked for me.

2. People laughing: Being someone who went to 6 different schools in 6 years, I had trouble making friends and was constantly being picked on, to this very day if people start laughing near my I subconsciously always think they are laughing at me, I know they aren't but I cannot help feel that way. I always feel myself get red, and walk fast away.

3. Meeting new people: I struggle meeting new people, I have made new friends recently, but it was on their behalf of always stopping me and talking to me, and being kind to me, and listening to me that really has made me see the err of my ways, If I were more outgoing I would have more friends.

4. Large groups: I really struggle in large groups of people, I don't like to be noticed, I just want to blend in. I always tend to have my worse anxiety attacks within large groups, I freeze with fear and sometimes cry with fear. I also cannot speak in front of large groups, even if I know everyone.

5. Telephone: I don't know what it is about the telephone, but I fear that worst of all. I don't know if it is because I was picked on for my voice when I was younger or what, but I have no phone personality whatsoever, and to make a call, I have to build up so much courage.

That is some of what I deal with everyday, and I hope to be able to get past it, first by starting to acknowledge it. It is a lot of work, but I will try my best. It doesn't help, being stuck at home with my foot issue, it makes me over think like usual. But I need to do this, better late than never
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    Christmas-A-Holic's Avatar
    I am so sorry you go through this all the time.

    I can say one thing is that I never EVER recall anything you posted on here to be out of line. You are always a really nice guy!

    I hope you can one day get over the anxiety and shyness!
    Posted 01-16-2012 at 02:42 PM by Christmas-A-Holic Christmas-A-Holic is offline
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    merrymistletoe's Avatar
    i love every post you have. i think you're a very considerate & kind person in your posts. by the way #1, #2, & #4 are issues i deal w/ too.
    Posted 01-29-2012 at 05:18 PM by merrymistletoe merrymistletoe is offline
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    gabulldawg's Avatar
    Ron I can relate to alot of this....I know what you mean and I have struggled over the years with the same issues. Just by knowing you here I would never have guessed you were shy and have had the same struggles as me...but alot of people tell me the same thing...If you ever want to talk about this stuff I am here to lend an ear!
    Posted 01-30-2012 at 07:19 AM by gabulldawg gabulldawg is offline
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