Generally I do not like to speak of someone who is not available to give their own opinion on matters which concens them but there comes a time when we all must vent. That is what I am doing here. Right or wrong, these thoughts and emotions MUST come out.
I do not like my life. I haven't in fact liked my life for 18 years. I am only going to make inferences as to why, not naming any specific person while I also keep in mind that I am responsible for some of the unplesantness I experience on a daily basis.
It seems to me that there is nobody to share little joys with for the most part, nobody to share closeness with daily (speaking mainly of emotional closeness), nobody to share hopes and dreams with. Nobody to spontaneously do things on a whim with. If I go out to a store with a "certain someone" It must ONLY be to that store. No place else.
In short there is nobody to make the struggles of life less. There are only worse and worse...