Michelle, I'm reading this a bit later than most, haven't been on here in quite a while. I'm glad to see that the positive attitude you are displaying is working, and you're feeling better. You've been through a lot, but it's sort of like the Kelly Clarkson song, "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger!" My thoughts and prayers are with you. I know the folks on here, and other sites previous to this one, have helped me through some down times. People who love Christmas have that effect on you,
. Take care my dear, and keep posting.