Going to be a hard Christmas
Hello all, I haven't been on here in over a month. I see the last time I was on was Friday, Aug 24th, the day before my 20 year old step son was in a car accident. He died of his injuries the 26th. The only silver lining to this tragedy was that we were able to donate several of his organs, he saved 4 lives. Four families will still be togther this Christmas, but there will be a big hole in ours. This has been so hard on all of us, my husband, me, my 23 year old son, my 22 year old step son, my 13 year old daughter, my parents, my in-laws, my husband's X wife's family, the list goes on. I'm usually getting really excited about Christmas now, listening to music, drafting this year's Christmas letter, shopping or at least getting my list of ideas ready. None of that seems important now. I know it will be hard, but I want to still try and celebrate a somewhat normal Christmas, especially for my daughter's sake. But it just won't be the same. Have any of you gone through this? Did you do anything special to remember your loved one? I know we plan to put a wreath at his grave, and already bought some candy cane solar lights to put up there too. Do I still hang up his wreath even though I won't put anything in it, or leave it out and make the absense obvious? Do I write my Christmas letter, even though it will be more depressing than uplifting? Or just send cards? We'll still go to church, still have our Christmas Eve buffet, but, yeah, won't be the same, don't think our hearts will really be in it. Any other suggestions on how to get through this first Christmas? Any ideas will be appreciated, and of course prayers for my family, we need all of those we can get. Thank you all for listening.