I am so sorry for your loss. I agree with what has been said already. It doesn't make sense why we must go through this. Losing a loved one does anger me too then I know I must move forward for the rest of my family's sake and realize no one is promised tomorrow. I try to focus on the good times I had with that particular person instead of how I lost them. It's difficult but I have no way to change the outcome on losing a loved one so I try very hard to stay positive. It still hurts regardless. God is always with us through everything and I pray you will find some comfort soon. Like you, Christmas has always been a lifesaver through tough times. I hope it will always work for me. I hope you are able to have a very merry Christmas this year even though you have had a tough year.
I am not sure that my words are any comfort at this time but sometimes it's very hard to say the right things when people are grieving. Just please know you are all in my prayers. (((Hugs))) to you!