I am sorry you are having a tough time right now, you and your family are in my thoughts.
Never Give Up!!!!
It may be tough to work on the and around the holidays, a number of years ago I worked at a business where I was required to work on Thanksgiving and both Christmas Eve & Day. It was probably the worst holiday seasons of my life, but I had to do it because that is what my job was at the time. It just makes you understand how much the holidays mean to you, and how much you love your family. I know it will be hard this year, but as soon as you can, if it is the first week of January take a trip home and celebrate Christmas that week. Christmas is but a date on the calendar, Christmas can be celebrated any day you want. Set up your tree, watch your Christmas shows and movies, listen to the music. Make the most of this situation. We will be here to help you celebrate, use us to help make your Christmas season a little merrier, there are a lot of great people here.
Never Give Up!!!!!
CM3, we miss you.