prayers are on the way merrymistletoe...I know how it is myself....had to deal with it since my daughter was born...with a severe postnatal depression that ended me in a clinic with her for a few weeks....and I had to take meds pretty much until christmas last year....my daughter is sick.....depression is terrible, because many people dont undertsand it....you were no cast that indicates that You are not healthy....u got not fever nor rash or anything that makes people understand that you are not doing good......and it can always come back and bite You again....I expierenced it as well.....now I am off the meds since December 26th...and it is going great...but it is still a fight and struggle everyday.......so here I am praying for You my dear Christmas friend