Hope everyone is well and looking forward to your Thanksgiving week in the US.
I'm sorry I haven't been around much. It's just been an awful year to be honest. This past Monday my aunt passed away. She was also my Godmother and lived up to that in every way possible every day of my life. She is the only person in both our families besides my parents who never forgot my son's birthday or our anniversary. Ever.
This past July she was under hospice care, young, but she had a rare form of cancer that doctors are not familiar with in terms of treatment, none the less, her hospice nurse advised her not to try and go out, but she managed to make it to the store just to make sure Noah received an 18th birthday card from her.
She was just everything to me. One of the only people in my life who ever made me feel like I was good enough, as is. She taught me to bake all of our traditional family Christmas cookies, cakes and decorate the house over, filling it with love and joy at Christmas. She dedicated all of her time and effort to care for the homeless and women's domestic violence centers.
I can't even wrap my head around the fact that she won't be present this Christmas. Or that I'll never again receive a Christmas card the last week of November with a $20 check for cookie money, that I never cash and ends up part of the card box that I keep her cards in. I never could bring myself to cash her checks after she went on disability due to the surgeries.
My son isn't well, nor is our business and I feel disconnected from everything at this time. So I apologize for my lack of participation - but like a sick dog , I tend to keep to myself when things are down. I just felt an explanation was warranted, because I love this board and all of you.
Hoping to find some Christmas Spirit to renew things.